“Life is confusing.” “I won a table-tennis competition
but I missed going up on the rostrum to receive recognition because I did
not hear my name being called out. Talk about missed opportunities.” “....for
some reason unknown to me, they (my parents) think I am here busting my
behind trying to learn something.” “....I will try my best for the benefit
of my religion, country, family, etc.”
Is it time to sell? If the time has come, so be it. If it were that
easy, I wouldn’t have to ponder my stride. I find myself having to justify
my actions. Justification comes easily, itself being adjustable to fit
my needs and wants. I try to warn myself that I might just be tricking
myself, but how can I fight this notion if I truly believe, even if just
for one moment? So, I sell. Now I am richer in one aspect, at least. Sure,
I part with a small portion in commission and/or taxes. Now I have to pass
this loot to my boss because I didn’t buy it with my own money in the first
place. He won’t find out for some time. In the meantime I can enjoy myself.
Maybe I’ll reinvest it and use it for some greater good. I should have
double-checked well before selling, for I also own options which could
have expired long ago. Or could it have been a good blue chip which would
have yielded a tidy annual dividend. Buy it back? The market did not wait
for my decision. I am just one.
Mimpi-mimpi pada waktu malam ataupun siang, kadang-kala dilupakan
begitu sahaja kerana tidak difahami atau sengaja tidak diendahkan. Sesekali
saya terfikir, apakah makna mimpi: adakah perlu ditafsir, diingati, dan
ditauladani? Jika benar mimpi itu membawa makna, saya patutlah membuat
persediaan sebelum mata terlelap, supaya mimpi tidak terluput dengan mudah
setelah jasad kembali sedar. Selama saya hidup, saya pernah menemui mimpi
1259 kali. Tetapi bilangan tersebut hanyalah yang dapat saya ingati, tak
termasuk mimpi-mimpi yang tidak saya ingati atau yang tidak saya sedari.
Mimpi adalah mimpi. Mungkin saya hanya bermimpi yang saya bermimpi yang
saya bermimpi. Saya menyelongkar fikiran, bertengkar dengan akal, mencari
bukti, untuk meyakinkan diri.
Comments from you is very much appreciated.
